i’m a jayzee and i’m a lesbian. hindi ako writer pero big fan ako ng site na ito for many years na. ngayon lang ako nagsulat.
this is more on seeking your opinion guys through a story… maybe if i get through with whats bothering me now then i’ll have more stories to write about…
i met this girl “bing” about 3 weeks ago… via common fb friends kasi we worked in the same company before but never crossed paths. so she said “hi” and i responded… exchanged messages more often. then i went to meet her in manila (i am not from manila btw). so enjoy naman kami super tawanan like we were at ease na agad… she was wearing short shorts and ang kinis at amputi ng legs nya… minsan dumidikita sya sakin and we’d hold hands like we’re together na. sometimes we’d move really close to each other and i cold smell her breath natetempt akong ikiss sya kaso lang medyo mukang dumidistansya sya ng konti. so after that day sabi nya sobrang nag enjoy sya. texting me fishing for me to admit something… so i did i said i like her and she said she liked me too…so ayun and ending we’re in a relationship na, just to see if it works out with both of us…
2nd meet namin a week after that we went to tarlac. dun kasi kami nagwork dati so sinamahan ko lang sya to take care of some unsettled obligations with her previous employer… she met some of my friends at game naman sya sa trip ng mga frends ko… we stayed sa motel at it was our first night together… maykayakap kami pero parehong malalim hinga namin like we’re both waiting for something to happen… so we kissed… then she felt my hand gumagapang pataas to grab her butt tumigil sya then told me to sleep… since i can’t sleep (bitin eh) nakipagkwentuhan ako sakanya… naopen yung issue about sa bestfrend daw nya who was a lesbian din name nya chi… chi was her dorm mate dati and they we’re close… i’d say too close she admit she fell inlove with chi but not the love she wanted to pursue, like too controlling daw kasi si chi na nakakasakal… so ayun with all her blabbering about chi medyo nagselos nako then i asked her yung casual lang na pagtatanong na parang hindi ako affected, bat di nalang kayo? ayun then she assured me na wala naman yun and that yes she had a choice to pursue chi but intead sayo ako nakipag commit diba? so i rest my case, wala nako nasabi. naiinis ako kasi habang nasa tarlac kami this chi was calling her all the time and texting which i hate. pero dedma ko lang i figured it may be too much for me to demand ngayon i know we’re just starting out and i don’t want to be all over her just like chi does… kasi they talk like sila with all the endearments. so naka mindset na sakin na sila nga siguro kaso hindi sya makawala. so there 3days kami sa tarlac ayokong sayangin yun oras kaya we made the most of it. nag-enjoy kaming dalawa sa trip namin.
3rd time we met after another week punta ako manila… sa apartment nya… hindi nya ako mapapasok agad she said chi was there. ewan ko whats with me pero ako yung taong nagffreakout sa ganung sitwasyon but i was calm… punta kami sa cafe just arond their block. usap at yun inamin na nya about chi and her plans of leaving her. she assured me na hindi ako rebound kasi even if wala ako she would leave chi still. so yun nakalama ako then ininvite nya ako sa apartment to meet chi ipapakilala nya ako as a friend. nun una ayoko but she insisted so pumayag narin ako… we had lunch e ang usapan lalabas kami pagpasok ni chi sa work… paalam daw muna sya… medyo uminit ulo ni chi kaya pinaalis nya na muna ako told me to wait sa may cafe… after an hour si chi yung dumating to see me sabi hindi daw dadating si bing hindi daw nya pinayagan. so i got worried naman pumunta ako sa apartment then found her there yun nga daw di daw kami makakapag out of town hindi daw sya pinayagan… nood kami dvd dun quiet kami then i kissed her…she kissed me back… since wala magawa niyaya nya ako magresort nalang sa antipolo na mga 30min away nalang na resort… so we went there as always we own the world and we were happy. after namin swimming we had dinner the hinatid ko sya… we agreed na susunduin ko sya the next day kasi sabay na kaming uuwi ng ilocos she said uuwi na sya sa tatay nya muna, to get chi out of her life, then sasama na sya sakin (we’re both from ilocos norte sya sur ako). nagkasalubong kami ni chi nun pauwi nako i gave her a lame excuse for seeing me there… a very lame excuse… anyway hindi namn sya nagreact violently. the next day an hour before ko imeet si bing she sent me a message sabi nya nag away daw sila and hindi na sya makakauwi she also told me na wag na muna sya puntahan.
since then i have’nt heard from her na… she’s not allowed of a cellphone kasi nagagalit si chi. i have no way to contact her and she’s not opening her fb (no updates). its been a week now… i was wondering if tama ba na puntahan ko sya or should i assess things na ayaw na siguro nya kasi hindi na sya nagpaparamdam?
i was happy with this girl and i know masaya sya with me.