what a shame!
hi there, my third post here , i thought i would not post anymore , been long time since my last post , coz i dont have much experience to share, Yoko naman imbento lng kakatamd kaya,
well to tell u all honestly its “freshly baked”. hehe . comedy muna. hapenned just last night , at hindi na rin ako nakatulog. i had a 50 year old chatmate from australia. Been chatting for 1 year then he decided to took his vacation 4 weeks ago,
before  his arrival here , He told me  he wanted to meet  me, and we assured  each other  if hindi kmi magkagustuhan we will  remain friends. during our chatting  time , he seemed  nice, gentle, masaya and comedy, he was  always  here to comfort  me online.
he’s been  divorce, though he has soft spot in my heart i could  say i like him.
3 days after his arrival, he phoned me ,
“babes kita tayo tomorrow il bring my brother’s car” he said
“rili? nahihiya ako eh” reply ko
“wag  kana  mhiya  hindi  na tyo  mga  teen-ager” tawa  cya
“ok isang taon  ko  yatang  pinaghandaan  yan  huh” sabi ko naman, tawa  kming  pareho
syempre , pag date prepare ang babae ,wanted to look nice , we met at the mall, kumain , kwentuhan , then we watched a movie , UNDERWORLD
Naramdaman ko that time gusto ko cya , there was a kilig feeling na bihira naman nating maramdaman sa isang tao db? i felt so secure , i felt so proud , pero syempre pigil ang lola nyo , kakahiya nga db?
minsan holding hands kmi , minsan abrisyete ako sa kanya ,ewan ko lng kung ano nahalata nya sakin , kung npansin din nya na i did like him. ayaw ko namn kc itanong , action speaks louder than words , di ba naman?
so watched kmi sine , sympre nkikiramdam na naman lola nyo, alam nyo , parang nun lng cya nakakita ng sine ha , engrossed cya sa panonood , huh. nalimot atang kasama nya ako , matatapos ng palabas , wala p ring first move , aba , sayang naman ang layo p nman ng pinang galingan ko ah, so inilapit ko mukha ko sa mukha nya , then he kissed me , wow it was rili heaven , tagal ko na wala kiss , it was fast kiss though , kc nga cine , saka , hindi ciguro cya komportable, i was hoping he could kiss me again, mga 3 kiss pa at lumabas na kmi , it was great kiss i ever had , khit sandaling kiss lng . nilaro nya dila nya bibig ko , i was flooding bad , got leak in my pants,
when we had finished the movie we had eaten  again,  then  kwentuhan,  upo  kmi sa bench , then  inaya  nya ako “dun”.  i know  alam  nyo  yun. He even asked  me kung gusto  ko raw b cya, i replied  no , so  hindi  naman  cya  ung tipong makulit , then he drove me home.    
Gusto  ko  pero  natatakot ako , we are not lovers , wala  nman  cya  sinasabi ,  kung  sana  sinabi man  lang  nyang  ” i  love you”  pero  wala  eh , but i was looking forward for his invitation pero  wala in the following  days ,  khit text wala  na.
not till yesterday , i already forgot him yung hindi nko umaasa pa na magiging kmi, he texted me,
“Goodbye  cruel world” exactly what  he  texted,
” rili  buhay  ka pa? nilimot moko wait pa namn  kita” tampo  ko  sa kanya
he told me  ako daw ang hindi  nag tetext ,   syempre  cya  lalaki  db?  bat ko nman  pagpilitan sarili ko ,
i teased  him  “  hindi man  lang  kita  natikman ha,ha!”  he said ” pde  pa  naman  last chance, cge  na pls ”
na alala ko ulit yung sinabi ng friend ko ,”sister anong silbi nyan (pussy) kung di gagamitin?” kc there was a time , na open ko sa knya id been dating but no sex had happened,
so parang naisip ko eto na nman , bkit hindi , i have been so bored, depressed and alone. why not? aalis naman n cya bukas , why not give ourselves a pleasures , was in the hospital when he texted me , i admit nagdadalawang isip talaga ako eh , pagkatapos ano? pero nananaig yung gusto ko this time , i wanted to be feel by a man , i was longing for a feeling being carressed by someone u love ,
“cge il be there in an hour” medyo malayo din kc yung meeting place namin. at that time hindi nko nagiisip , puyat din kc ako at walang kain for 24 hours , i had been in my cousin who was brought in the hospital at ako ang isa sa nag-aasikaso.
so we met 7 past na, i told him bilisan namin kc hindi ako pdeng gabihin masyado , my nanay knew i was just in the hospital,
so nag take out kmi ng pagkain , he was also rushing din kc nga mag empake p cya ng gamit nya , for 6 am flight in the next morning ,
he drove  in a hotel ,  pumasok kmi sa kuwarto , then  kumain ,  gutom ako pero hindi ako nakakain , cguro sa excitement .
i took  a bath , then  he followed  me on bed ,  nakatapi  nalng  ako  ng twalya  nun , then higa  nko sa kama, nagkumot  ako  kc sobrang lamig  ng aircon,  after  he washed  himself he finally  joined  me on bed , teasing  me “  sigurado ka na bang  handa ka na?
” im ok , wag mo nang patagalin pareho tayong nagmamadali” sabi ko na lng , ” wag moko bibitinin” sabi ko pa
he kissed  me  gently, napapikit ako sa sarap, he used his tounge  to pleasure  my lips ,
” ohhhhh” i was rili hot it was a  great sensation na matagal ko nang  ini-imagine, he kissed my face, my neck while  caressing my breast.
“ahhhhhhhhhh” pareho kming umuungol in pleasure.i was rili flooding like crazy and he was hard , so i started to bj him , kc during our chats , sabi ko sa kanya kung i bj ko cya , lalagpas cya sa ulap sa sarap , so i proved to him
i was  rili horny  too, sinubo  ko yung ari nya, yung  head muna then dahan dhan hangang  nasubo ko na  lahat , he groaned, ” ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh”  i kissed his balls too , gently kissing it both then back to the shaft to the  head and nibble  the  tiny  slit,  “yummy” sa  loob loob  ko lng…
i lick  his cock  gently till balls then  lick  it from balls  to  the  head , then  swallowed  it whole, slowly  then  fast , he was rock  hard gusto ko cyang  upuan ,  i guided  his cock  in my pussy,  unti unti  akong umupo , i felt  pain, so  try ko yung  ulo  ng cock  nya ,  i still  felt  pain , then  bj  ko  uli  cya, i played my tounge on his cock all possible pleasure  that a tounge could  do ,  his moan made  me more excited  para  i suck  cyang mabuti,   then  i asked him if he has condom, then binigay  nya sakin , hindi ko  mbuksan  kaya  binigay kon ulit  sa  kanya  yung trust, then bigay nya sakin yung condom i slowly put it on his cock ,  
so dahan dahan akong umupo sa cock nya , “ohhhhhhhhh,” it was slowly , till sinakmal ng pussy ko buong cock nya , sobrang sarap , nakakabaliw na sensasyon, i started to move up and down while he groped my breast and we kissed ,
“ahhhhhhhhhhh” “ohhhhhhhhhhh”
then  humiga  ako, and he was pumping  me  and kissed  again, “babes i want  doggie pls” gusto ko kcing magawa  namin  lahat  ng position tulad ng nababasa ko, so  tumuwad ako  and he  entered  me  his cock  “ohhhhhhhhhhhh i love it, more  pls…”he was also  moaning , he moved his hips and i could feel  his cock getting more harder inside  my  wet pussy ,  but suddenly hindi  ako naging komportable ,  there was  pain  in doggie position ,  so  i told him ,” babes magpalabas  kana pls” it became painful…  he  was not  so sure   but i insisted , “pls  cge  na  cum  now” 
“  you  sure?”  he asked  me  , “  pls”
so  naging  mas mabilis na  pagthrust nya sakin , he  started to be wild , he  even  slap my butt. huh , first  time ever  na sampalin  ang pwet ko , sakit kaya.
pero masarap din yung pkiramdam ng  cock  nya  sa  ari ko while  he thrusting me hard .
i could feel  he was about to  cum ilang  malalakas  na kadyot  pa  at narinig  ko  na  halinghing nya , “ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh”  i even heard he was  saying ” i love you” but  i think it was  just an  illusion.
it was so tiring we laid both on bed and only heard our hard breathing, nhiga ako sa dibdib nya and kissing his nipples , he was resting , after mga 10 minutes i started to teased him again , he said he was tired , but i said i want more , i have not yet finished,
“im not 18 years  old  ok” he said  to me,
so i went  to the comport room and washed myself, when i got  back to him he started to picked up his clothes and  told me  to check  out , i stopped him ,
” hey i have not yet finished,  you  told me  hindi  moko bibitinin , ” pinahihiwatig nya na hindi  nya  yata  kaya  na , and gusto na  nyang  umalis  kmi, so i begged  him.
” pls i want to cum kainin moko sandali lng lalabasan nko pls” nagsusumamo nko, akala pala nya tapos nko knina kaya ko cya sinabihan na magpalabas na,
he was reluctant , he fingerfucked me instead, and again i told him to “eat” me.
it was a shame, when  he rejected  to do it,
’sorry  i cant’  he said” “ako nga  pinag comdom mo  eh “,
 
napahiya  ako , but still  i had said to him, i was just  afraid to get preggy, and im not dirty , “pls  sandali  lang i would have  my orgasm in  a  minute,” i was begging  i think,  he didnt  do it , and i decided to picked all my clothes and get dressed ,
i felt so miserable all over again, gusto kong umiyak, pinigil ko lng, 3 years akong nanabik sa sex ganun lng pla mapapala ko, i was very disappointed. and humiliated, hindi ba talaga ako kaibig ibig na babae?
nakakahiya , umuwi akong masakit na masakit  ang puson ko, hindi ko alam ang reason nya , last time  he told me , favorite  nya i oral  ang  babae , so what was  wrong?
pinaluguran kita ganun pa ginanti mo sakin? what was the big deal  if he  had eaten me? i rili  dont  know  the answer ,
hey  there  people  can u comment with this?  whats the possible  reasons  why a guy rejected a woman, i am not a whore, im tidy, it was  rili , rili  a  shame on my part,
i dont deserved it ,  i rili  dont…sobrang malas  ko naman…three years  ko yung  hinintay after break up with my ex . 3 years ago ,i dont  want another 3 years more , para  lang madismaya  ulit?
nakakaiyak …